Now I’m wondering if you only stayed with me because you felt bad that I was like the way I was. If you did, then thanks, but no thanks. I feel pathetic enough on my own.

I’ve mad you really upset tonight and I’m so, so sorry. You have sectionals tomorrow and you were already nervous about running against varsity  I’m so sorry. 

I’m sorry you ended up with me as your girlfriend. 

Hey darling. I’m going to write you letters now. I started writing more about my fears and apologies to you during our break. And I think I should continue to write to you until I run out of pages. Until the day comes when I think you need to know what’s been going on and how things have grown. To let you know that, Theo, you mean everything to me. You’re someone that I’ll fight for without thought, the someone who I want to continue loving until I can’t. You’re not that special someone because you are much more than special to me. You are your own person, you’re beautiful in all that you can and can’t do. In all that you are and aren’t. You’re someone who I’m sure of most of the time — in your words and actions. In your sincerity, in  everything. Theo, I believe in you. I don’t believe in you because I love you or because you love me. I believe in you because I found a reason to, because I took my chances. I love you, silly boy.